We should call this…. May 28, 2007

So, I wonder what crap Jennifer ate today?

I was so tempted to not write today, but to keep myself honest I’ve got to spill the beans.

Day started fine, ate a green smoothie, 2 banana’s, an apple, an orange, and a nice bog spinach salad. All fine and good.

On my desk, I found a package of sponge chocolate that a co-worker brought back for me from a trip to Buffalo last week. I saw them, and was about to take them over to the kitchen for other people to eat. I thought that it couldn’t possibly hurt to have one little piece. Well, within a few minutes I consumed the whole bloody bag. The bag was the equivalent of about three Crunchie bars. Not only did I feel incredibly guilty and disgusted with myself, I was also seriously ill That’s a lot of garbage when for the last 2 months I’ve been eating extremely healthy foods, with the odd indulgence in small quantities.

Don’t tune out yet, it gets better! - I get home, and am about to make myself a green smoothie. Instead, inexplicably I decide to make the leftover hot dogs from the weekend. I eat three of them, with processed white hot dog buns. - I’m really not sure what has come over me today. I’m not a binge eater, and never have been. I don’t think I’ve ever eaten three hot dogs in my life, and certainly never a huge bag of sponge toffee all in one go. I do recognize that I did binge, for whatever reason. Hopefully, that will be the last. I must have been craving something, but I can’t imagine that my body really needed sponge toffee and hot dogs

I do know that anytime I’ve tried to lose weight in the past, it’s usually once I’ve lost 20 to 30 lbs, that I start to “give up” and sabotage my diet plan. I do not want that to happen this time. I think this blog will help. Even just the act of writing out where I’ve faltered, and of course my success. The fact remains that I’ve lost almost 20 lbs, I feel healthier than I have in many years. I have more energy, my skin is clearer, and I just noticed earlier today that I have not had indigestion in about a month. I practically lived on tums not so long ago. I drink far less coffee than I have since my early 20’s when I became addicted to it.

Yesterday, I even started a bag of clothes that no longer fit. These I’ll donate somewhere. It felt absolutely incredible to fold them up knowing that I would never have to wear them again.

Anyway, I’ll keep plugging along. I do know how good I feel when I eat primarily raw. Hopefully whatever came over me today is now out of my system.

This morning I weighed in at 228.2 lbs - tomorrow should be interesting